If only I could...
Back to Tenerife
with my sister...
back to school...
crazy birthdaypartys...
new adventures with Jess...
But, we live in the present!
November night.
Jisses I am tired! Junior woke up around 8 this morning and no plans at all to go back to sleep. Lucky me! So here I am... but it´s actually very cosy to get up early because it´s still dark outside and all the Christmaslights are shining so beautiful from the houses nearby.
So, what´s the plan for today?
Well, I´ll go and take a shower as soon as possible (when I find energy to do it), then put on my make-up and then wait for Rebecca to call me. As soon as she has called I will go and pick her up in Trollhättan (for some reason she is there and doing something... ;D ), and then we will go to her place in Uddevalla and hang out. She is gonna help me to clear my mind. As I said before, she is my better half and always has good advises.
What else will happened?
Well, I don´t know for sure yet. Hopefully Linda´s calling me and tell me which day she will come here and visit. She is that kind of person who can´t wait for anything so if she can decide she would love to come as soon as possible, maybe tomorrow if it works out with busses and stuff.
While I am in Uddevalla today I will check up how much it will cost to do the tatoo I would like to do. Just so I know so I can compare to other places. But I know atleast one place in Uddevalla that are supposed to be good, so that will be my first option. I will bring Rebecca as support. :)
Feels like I can fall asleep while I am sitting here. I was so proud that I went to bed at 00.30 yesterday night but it didn´t matter since I couldn´t fall sleep before 02.00 - 02.30. And as the previous days this weekend, no voice at all when I woke up. I am just not getting along with my throat for the moment, but atleast it seems like it goes in the right direction.
Well, maybe it is time for me to wake up and the best way of doing that is to take a nice shower. And you never know when Becca is calling so I better be prepared.
/ Love Sarah
Nothing left for me to say,
I can't even stop the rain from falling down into my eyes.
Nothing left for you to speak.
For a moment I am weak so I can't hold my tears from falling in the night.
Close your eyes and let me go my way.
Cause I can't, baby, I can't stay.
Let me love you.
Baby, hold me tight.
From days dawning deeper in the night.
I won't kiss you when it means goodbye.
So leave me dancing in November night.
Leave me dancing in November night ...
An order is an order...
Here I am. Sitting infront of the computer and listen to some music. Couldn't find anything better to do. I finally made Jr sleep an hour ago, after like 2 hours trying. He was so tired so it wasn't even funny to try to make him sleep.
I got some complains from my not-swedish friends that my blogg isn't very friendly to the people from other countries since they can't understand what I am typing so I thought I will make them happy, for once. :P But I am not so very good in english so maybe they understand my swedish better? That would be a shame... ;)
Today it has been a grey day. Rain in the morning, rain in the night and belive it or not but also rain there in between!
My sister and Daniel went to bed pretty early and that gave me some time to think about my life. Not very interesting but very necessary. I made a deal with myself that I can't affect.
I havn't decided which day to go home yet but I know that sooner or later I need to go home. Before my sister went to bed she said that she hadn't decide if she is going to work or not tomorrow. If she decides to go to work tomorrow I will go home tomorrow, if she stays home I am gonna stay here one more day and just hang out with her and go home on Tuesday. So it is up to her. I really enjoy my stay here but I feel that I have to get home and deal with my life aswell.
I also feel that I want to go and get my dog. There is a person who is intressed in to buy her and if she does it I would like to have some time with her before she goes away. I am selling her for her own best. It's sad, sure it is, but it's not right to keep her if I know a person who can make her life even better.
I really feel like doing a tatoo now. Think I have enough piercings and I don't want people to think that I have too many, well I already think there are people who thinks that (parents), but regular, used people. As soon as I got money to do it, I will.
Jisses now I feel I'm hungry... gaah. Not fun and I don't have the energy to go to the next room to get my pizzasallad. I better jump to bed and think of something that makes me happy. Like good old times with friends... Feel the happy feeling of being crazy in love... my love to animales... All that crazy stuff we've done together.
One picture tells more than a thousand words. 
Me and my Rebecca.
The most happy time of my life. 
Some friendships never dies.
Crazy beautiful.
You are everything to me.
Tears, scars and broken hearts. We will survive.
"Now I still wonder why did you say goodbye?
You let me stand here all alone.
The pain inside my heart, it's tearing me apart cause now I stand here on my own.
Now I cry myself to sleep, only you are what I need.
We can make it if we try.
I am nowhere without you.
I don't know what I should do cause my tears will never dry, and I still wonder why."
"Lasgo - Cry"
/Love Sarah
